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!Monday, March 12, 2007

I know everyone says things happen for a reason, or things DON'T happen for a reason. They say turn to God and pray and listen to what he says. But how long do you pray and wait? Even if you try your best to make things happen, what else can you do to prove that your worth? I'm getting tired and helpless and don't know what to do.

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- 9:38 PM

angel
!Tuesday, February 27, 2007

I woke up this morning crying. I dreamt of Niquee, which is weird because I haven't dreamt of her since her 9 days. In my dream I remember seeing her face, then someone told me she had passed away. I went to a room with my cousin and just started crying and played The Corrs CD. I remember my mom saying na "tulala" ako. I was just staring into the corner with a blank expression and crying. When I woke up I was actually crying and I felt so sad and missed Niquee so much.

I'm not sure if that dream signifies anything, but Niquee I hope wherever you are that you're doing fine. I know you know my situation now and maybe you're trying to help me out, if so Thank You. Keep looking out over everyone that cares for you, especially your family. We all miss you so much! I'll light a candle for you today, our angel...

And she was beautiful, so beautiful
I still hear her laugh like she's here
And when I go to sleep at night
I'll thank you for each blessed thing surrounding me

I'll be proud to be like you
Forever angel

Angel came out til now
And vanish without a warning
Angel, like and angel
Just like an angel
I wish that i could see her one more time

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- 1:51 PM

Year of the PIG
!Sunday, February 18, 2007

Kung Hei Fat Choi...Happy Year of the Pig

Its my year haha Being born in 1983 I am the Year of the Pig, more specifically the Water Pig. I decided to read up on my sign and I was surprised to see how much it reflects who I am haha

- They have so much of the perfectionist in them that others may be inclined to perceive them as snobs, but this is a misconception. - SO TRUE...people always think I'm a snob or mataray!

- Pigs also care a great deal about friends and family and work hard to keep everyone in their life happy. Helping others is a true pleasure for the Pig, who feels best when everyone else is smiling.

- Pigs are highly intelligent creatures, forever studying, playing and probing in their quest for greater knowledge. - I guess that's why I went straight to get my Master's!

- They can be misinterpreted as being lazy, however, due to their love of reveling in the good stuff - Maybe I'm just lazy? haha

- They have an eye for name brands rather than generics so they generally spend a lot of it. - quiet na lang ako dyan haha

- Hobbies and Pastimes: Shopping, parties, theater - HAHAHA!!!

- Boar people are quick tempered, yet they hate arguments and quarreling - super super true!

- They do not find asking for help an easy task and would rather carry the burden themselves.

- usually trust people before they truly know them. This, of course, can get them into trouble because they are often to trusting for their own good - hay nako...tell me about it ...

- These people love parties and social situations and enjoy giving of themselves to help others.

- "Its better to give than to receive" would probably be the Pig’s motto

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- 9:16 PM

happy 30th birthday jaycee - tavern on the green
!Saturday, February 03, 2007

A couple of weeks ago my family & I received an invitation to celebrate Jaycee's 30th birthday at Tavern on the Green. For those that don't know Jaycee he was a family friend who was part of the 9/11 tragedy. Ever since he was young he dreamed of working at the World Trade Center and he achieved his dream in April of that same year. We're very close to his family and I met them when I was about 7 years old. I was surprised that time has flown by so fast, but nonetheless I was happy to celebrate his birthday. A couple of days before the celebration/remembrance my tita called to ask me to talk at the lunch about my memories with Jaycee.

As I was thinking of memories with Jaycee, I had mixed emotions about giving a short speech. First, because I couldn't remember much, since I was young at the time when I spent time with Jaycee. I kept holding off writing anything until the night before. I wrote down a few of my memories and hoped it would be okay.

When we got to Tavern on the Green pictures of Jaycee were placed in front of the room. While we were seated I kept thinking of what I would say. As the time came there were people who sang songs for Jaycee as well as talk about scholarships held in his name at Rutgers and UP. My tita also shared more memories of Jaycee, which left everyone in tears. That whole time there was so much emotion in the room, you could feel how much everyone cared and missed Jaycee so much.

It turns out only another family friend and I were going to talk about our memories with Jaycee. Valerie went first and everything she said was filled with so much emotion, that many people cried along with her. After her they served cake and my tita asked me to go up, but I wasn't ready yet. I was still emotional from what Valerie said. But after a couple of minutes I regained my composure and got up to speak. I thought I was fine and wouldn't get emotional, but through the middle of what I was saying I started to shake and tear up. I couldn't help myself, it was at that moment that I realized how Jaycee made an impact on my life when I was younger. I took a deep breath looked at my tita and continued what I was saying. I'm not sure if the people could still understand me, but I went on anyway. I got to say everything I was feeling and was glad I went up in front of everyone. I hope Jaycee heard everything I said cause it was all true.

It was nice to see all the people that love & care for Jaycee. The afternoon was a time to reflect on all our memories as well as meet others who were also part of his life. We all miss him and there are still some times I think about him and when I was younger. He left us all with good memories and made me realize to strive hard for everything I want to achieve.

http://www.jacyscholarship.org/
http://www.legacy.com/Sept11/Story.aspx?PersonID=108924
http://getalife911.blogspot.com/2006/09/jayceryll-m-de-chavez.html

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- 8:54 PM

a night to remember
!Sunday, January 14, 2007

January 13, 2007
Sheraton Hotel

last night was a night I will never forget. after 4 months of planning the day finally came. before the night started my cousin, mom, & I were all nervous for various reasons. i started thinking about my dances, hoping I wouldn't mess up and what others would say. but the time finally came when everyone was dressed up and the photographer was there to take pictures. gosh I think my smile started to become fake from all the pictures and different posing positions haha. I started to see all the people come in for the cocktail hour from the balcony of the room, for once people actually came on time haha!

so there at a little plast 7pm went downstairs to say hi to everyone. gosh there were so many people, I didn't recognize some of them. I think I even said hi to some people twice haha! left the cocktail place to go into the ballroom to talk to the DJ. wow my 1st SAPRISE. my cousin made butterfly candle holders & purple boxes with Lindt chocos for giveaways :)

party finally started at 8pm with the DJ introducing my dad & I, but before that there was a surprise introduction that my mom prepared that pretty much outlined my life haha! then I danced with my dad..whew didn't really mess up and then everyone started to dance :)

Changed into another dress to dance with Paul. I was a bit nervous, since there was a lift and I wasn't sure how my dress would be haha! I wore a short purple dress and was gonna use the bracelet Presh gave me, but it was kinda loose and I was afraid it might fly off. So instead, I used the bracelet Joy gave me, since it also matched my dress. Thanks ha! hehe Once the music played I was on autopilot. I heard everyone clapping and yelling, which made me dance even better :) Thank god everything turned out well, all the practicing paid off :)

Then my dad & his friends prepared a "special" dance number. There was about 12 of them on the dance floor, then all of a sudden 'BOOM TARAT' started to play. I was laughing hysterically. It was so funny seeing them all doing the dance. I think that was the comedy of the night!

So there changed back into my long dress, since it was dinner time and we had to take table pictures. It was nice to go around and actually talk to some people :) Only went to half of the room, since I felt like dancing haha! Took a dance break then went around to the other tables.

After pictures my mom told me to change for my dance with my tito. I thought they would play the slideshow at that time, but when i got back I was in for the biggest SAPRISE of the night. My cousin had me sit in the middle of the dance floor and watch a slideshow she & her boyfriend prepared. Okay I had a feeling they had something up their sleeve, since I saw some CDs in her bag earlier, but wasn't quite sure what it was. Then all of a sudden I see my baby pictures and the song that goes "Why don't you smile my shining star"...or something to that effect. It got me laughing, cause it was so embarrassing haha! Then the song 'HAPPY' played and I totally got goosebumps because it was a video of my WHOLE family in the Philippines. They were all gathered in the living room with big smiles and laughing. At that point I felt tears about to run down my face. I realized how much I miss them so much. I covered my face to stop the tears from flowing. Then they each gave me messages...some of which were comical, thanking me for the things I've given them haha! All of them told me to go back before I work, so we could all bond again. But my tito's message really got to me about how proud he was to have a niece like me & how lucky my parents are. While watching him I had images of the past running through my head, as if I was in a movie. After my family's messages I thought it was over, so I ran to my cousin & her boyfriend and thanked them & gave them hugs & kisses.

But that wasn't the only SAPRISE. All of a sudden I see Janet Jackson a.k.a. Joy on the screen, gOsh was I shocked again! I was totally taken off guard. Her message really touched me, but I held back my tears again. Next came Presh w/ DD Bear, super touching message again, but of course comedy time at the end hehe. Then Queenie Myra with her Bulaga crown effect hehe! I was also saprised to see Tita Jo, who many said was super pretty..yehey!!! There was also a vid from Pam, but it came late na....mana talaga kay ate belle hehe. Then came a soft voice, but no picture. At first I couldn't tell who it was, since it was kinda noisy, but it was Diana! Of course the shy one with matching song...so sweet :) Ate Arvee prepared for her message, there was acting, singing & drama hehe :) Again I thought it was done, so I went up to my cousin again to thank her, but she told me to sit back down haha! She announced that there were still more messages. At that time I didn't know what else to think, since I was so overwhelmed already.

Then comes NINA on the screen, I think I kinda screamed cause I was shocked haha. My tita even came up to me to ask if it was really Nina haha! Then came Dew-Anne, who my cousins said was pretty and asked me who it was..yiheee! Next came Nina's Band, who really got me & everyone else laughing. Then it was Nyoy, who I was also surprised by. All this time I was wondering who shot the video and if they even knew who I was haha! Of course last, but not least was the SAPRISE KING! King's video made me laugh in the beginning. Shy type b? hehe. I knew at that point that all the SAPRISES were over, so for the last time went to my cousin & her bf to thank them. The DJ asked me if I wanted to say anything, but I said 'no' cause I didn't want to get too emotional haha!

THANK YOU SO MUCH to everyone who SAPRISED me with their video messages! For the first time I was really saprised and touched with the effort everyone put into it. I don't think I could put into words how much I appreciated it all. I know I've been saying THANK YOU to all of you so many times, but I really am THANKFUL for everything! SALAMAT haha!

After the saprises I wasn't sure if I could dance with my tito, so I told the DJ to just play music so everyone else could dance again and I could recompose myself. After some time I finally danced with my tito, which I feel was a disaster haha! We only practiced once and we kinda messed up, but oh well that's life haha! After that I just enjoyed the night and took pictures with everyone, but not with my camera haha!

Then came the time for my cousin to blow her birthday cake, since it was also her birthday that night. After the cake I introduced her & her boyfriend who prepared a dance #, which I choreographed. I was nervous for them haha! But all went well and they did great! :)

After the party was over, there was an afterparty in our suite that lasted until 3 am. We got in trouble cause we were so loud haha!

All in all it truely was a night I will never forget... THANK YOU to my parents, my cousin Jane, Lito, Paul, Tito Carlo, my family in the Philippines, my CHARMS, Myra's Fam, Ate Arvee, Nina, Nyoy, Dew Anne, King, Nina's Band...basta EVERYONE n lang haha!...LOVE YOU ALL!!!

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- 9:04 PM